Life is not flat, not simple as I want and imagine. When I was in a childhood, I didn't know what is problem. Things that I knew only something make me happy and I would be angry if something disturb me or hinder my desires. As an example; when my older sister take my toys, directly I cried until Mom come to and soothe me. That is a child mind, n'importe quoi ce que me faire heureux (what ever make me happy). Then, my parents lead me to know what in badness, goodness. Allowed the time, my surroundings teach me what are problems and what must I do to face it. Sometime I'm happy, some time I'm so sad. There is nothing flat in my life, it is fulfilled by happiness and sadness.
When I feel happy? It will be if something I want is realized, when something is appropriate to my heart, my confidence. When I was successful in ricing bike, became a new students of elementary school until collage there is a special feeling in my heart and the sweet smiles come in my face. Yah, that is happiness. Thousands reasons have been in everyone to feel happy. Include to personal reason(love, family, health, academic, business, etc) or communal(team goal, winning competition, togetherness, etc). One most important note is the right happiness just in a goodness, not in a badness though a little bit exceedingly criminality. Did you happy in a drunken? You just have a very small sensation, not happiness. Happiness is not compatible to the badness though a little one. So, make a goodness then you will get that happiness.
When I feel sad? In the opposite to happiness. Something that is not suitable to my heart, my desires will disturb and make me angry or sad. It's often happened to me. Last 3 days ago, I'm in bad mood because there is a problem in my work and I have to solve, improve my experiment. After looking for something can return my good mood, finally I get it back. I tried to make pleasure, go outside to a nice mall, shopping(important things, hehe), etc and I didn't get my desire. I think deeply, thinking how can I throw out laziness. Ohh... I just remind the I'm in a woman habitual that is always followed by bad mood. Then, I tried to Remember Allah more frequently and Alhamdulillah now I'm in a good mood. First time I became sad because of trouble in my work and finally I'm sad because I can'not Remember Allah every time and however condition.
He give me a sinuose life to make me struggle, make me more strong and better and so I have to be grateful of every His gift, His Rahmat.
note:
- sometime we have to relax and collect the energy to do the next struggle, not good to force your self -
